Trusting

I went in for an MRI on Monday morning. I was hoping that it would reveal the answers we needed to determine what is going on inside my body. They called me late Monday afternoon with the results, but I missed the call. So I had to wait until Tuesday morning to hear. The nurse was kind to call me so quickly. The results: hyperintense signal non conclusive, not limited to contusion, myelopathy, or MS. They referred me to a neurologist. I was in a bit of shock. Not sure what to think. Not much time to think. I was on my way to BSF leaders meeting in Grapevine because I missed my leader's mtg on Monday for the MRI. I called Brad. I called my BSF leader. She was a source of encouragement. She had a parallel experience 15 years ago. Was given a MS diagnosis, but it turned out to be a bone spur from a car wreck. I am aware of what MS can do, I looked up myelopathy on google, I read a little and then stopped. I do not need my mind going down those trails right now. The new steriod has helped with the numbness and hypersensitivity. But my right side does not feel right. I don't feel pain, but a strain on that side. I feel jittery at times. A dull headache at times. The numbness in my right toes I have felt from when Kennedy dropped a full sippy cup of milk 6 months ago has returned.

I am scared. Mostly of the unknown. But I keep singing one of Presley's songs..."When I am afraid I will trust in YOU, I will trust in YOU, I will in Trust in YOU. When I am afraid I will trust in YOU." I know this is an opportunity for me to Trust in the Lord and His provision, healing, care. This is an opportunity for God's glory to shine in me for others to see. Others are watching. Others may come to know Him through this storm. I of course am praying for complete healing, wisdom for my doctor, a quick and correct diagnosis. But I know WHATEVER happens, He is in control of all things, every detail and I can trust in HIM!